I wish I had kept the photo I snap chatted to my family this morning. With a celsius temperate range between 28 and 34 degrees it would have been easy to do nothing today. The far south of NSW was treated to atrocity (can you tell I hate hot weather? 😛 ) this Saturday, but luckily this girl was prepared.
I shut the doors, windows and curtains, had prepared home made ice blocks the night before, put my heat pack in the freezer to become a cold pack, and made my first batch of iced tea during the day.
Meaning… duh duh daaaaarrrrr!!! I finished the reading-out-loud-line-edit of my manuscript. Yay! Friggen finally.
I’ve been working on this baby for months upon months. Everything has gotten in my way: laziness, looking for a house, moving house, procrastination, Christmas, New Years. It’s been a busy time to work on it, but today, the 20th of January of 2018 I have finished it.
And am smashing my NaNo Goal Tracker in the process.
I also apologise for the photo quality. I have just discovered Airdrop and I LOVE it. Therefore all photos are taken on my iPhone SE.
Back to business…
I edited more than I usually would today because I knew how close I was to finishing. Once I did, I picked up the entire thing and waved it in front of my partner’s face in celebration. Haha.
Then I relaxed for the rest of the day. I ate too much Nutella (we have no bread until shopping tomorrow and I ate it with an English muffin and rice cakes). I filmed a 2017 Book Awards video that I’m pretty sure I’ll delete because I look like a tired, hot and bothered person who is slouching in front of the camera. I tried to finish editing another video, but lost the motivated.
I DID, however, read a lot more of The Return of the King. Less than 200 pages to go on that bad boy. It’s been a long
journey, and kind of an exhausting one, but I’m liking it now we’ve returned to Sam and Frodo. No spoilers please. Yes, I live under a rock and have not seen the movies nor read the books until now.
Then I capped off the rest of the evening by opening Scrivener for the first time is months, but of course, guess what happened?
THE VERSION I’D SPENT MONTHS WORKING ON WASN’T ON MY COMPUTER.
I legit couldn’t find a Scrivener file for it – my writing program.
Thank the powers of the universe (and the sometimes working organisational side of my brain) that I’d kept a Word document version. After each complete read through I compile a Word doc from Scrivener and save it. In case I need to see something or add something in I delete in a later draft.
So I spent most of the time putting asterisks in the Word doc so Scrivener will pick up when a chapter and scene changes. It doesn’t fix everything cause Scrivener puts them all in a new scene and I have to go in and add the chapter folders, but I don’t care. I’m just happy for what I had.
Then I finally got to put some changes in. That was cool, until I had another half freak out.
Originally I had the male character start the book, but then when I went to a manuscript clinic I was advised against it. And she convinced me. I removed him. But then when doing this edit tonight I wanted to put him back in, convinced this time that it was an amazing scene. But of course nothing in my head is as good on paper (is it for anyone…?) and I was discouraged when I read it. Now I don’t know what to do. I’m going to leave it and think for a bit. It’ll come to me, it’s just frustrating.
I feel self doubt and slight terror because I’m coming to the end of my editing journey. I’m scared my best isn’t good enough. But I’ll never know until I jump. My theory this time is I don’t want to over cook it. I could perfect it for another five years, but all along I had a decent manuscript.
But the other side of me can’t wait. She wants me to click the send button tonight.
In the middle I will find a sane and workable mindset.
Wish me luck 😉
P.S. It’s hotter now despite supposedly being back at 20 degrees. *Shrugs* Sanity is a state of mind.